Saturday, October 07, 2006
i just sat down and kept quiet.
i just sat down and pondered.
i just sat down and wept.
i just sat down.
hey all. im back again.
finally, its saturday.
at 1 am in the morning.
too many things flying around in my mind.
i reap what i sow.
but this is not what i sow.
then whyy am i reaping it now.?
and its not great rewards.
instead, i got troubled.
but whyy should i be.
i just wanted to say,
all i long for was for all of you
to tell me about yourself.
then again, it's easier said than done.
the care i show,
you dont appreciate.
the softness i show,
you retaliate.
now i just sat there and shut up.
i could have stood up,
and yelled at you all i want.
but i didn't.
you did something wrong.
yet you didn't tell me.
actually, i always knew something was wrong.
but i just kept quiet.
and now, you climb on my head and poop all you like.
you climb on my head and shit all you want.
and then again, i just sat there and let you poop.
am i in the wrong.?
i dont seem to be able to cope.
everything seems to worsen.
is it really like that.?
or am i trying to deceive myself.?
what's going on.?
