Tuesday, October 16, 2007
sorry for the lack of post.im so overloaded.
long post.
perhaps emo to anyone reading.
dont read if you're not interested.
honestly speaking.
i dont know how to make everyone understand.
anyway, 2 more post to my 200th post.
guess i can't post my 200th post on my birthday.
going 8teen in 2 days time.
ask me how i feel.
wonderfully awesome that you can't define it.
and to tell you the truth.
im lying.
yes. i dont deny.
im looking forward to a wonderful birthday celebration.
but as the day gets closer,
i don't dare to put my hopes too high.
im afraid that everyone's too busy that no one celebrates with me.
not that they do it on purpose.
but its just that they are busy.
with?
well, with school, work, friends, family.
you name it, i guess they've got it.
now, im not emo.
its just a reflective moment,
if you could pardon me.
i hope to comeback
with a post perhaps before or after my birthday,
with a happier post or perhaps i'll tell you all about the celebration.
i'll think about it.
anyway, last words.
well. i really wonder.
whyy when i need help, nobody wants to help me.
but when its too late, everyone's stretching out their hands.?
and when i refuse their help, its as if i rejected them..
no. i dont mean it that way.
im just trying to prevent me from bursting off the volcano top
as im frustrated with the workload as it is.
so i refused help because i want to prevent myself from flaring up.
perhaps sometimes,
its good to keep requests to myself.
i am the hare.
you are the tortoise.
the tortoise always wins.
i lose.
