Monday, April 14, 2008
i am not blind,
i know what's going on
first and foremost,
i declare, this will be a last post.
about my roomate.
not emo at all.
just true to myself.
those who know her, can tell her to read this.
i dont really bother anymore.
and to some of her friends,
look, come on.
if you think all of this is no big deal.
then you know what,
mayybe you shd try living with her for 7 weeks.
i think you'll like it.
i was thinking, about what my dad said.
what is the point.?
if she talks bad about you, let her be.
you dont have to get back at her.
she will face her punishment one day.
karma, to you.
what goes around comes around.
i know that i was fuming a whole day today.
and i was screaming and yelling i know.
i hope that i did not really offend anyone today.
those who listen to my rambles.
i've been through this whole cycle befoe.
ppl thinking its your fault and stuff.
and i still think it really really sucks.
i know that they're her friends.
and they side her, be it blindly or not.
but i always believe that there are 2 sides to every story.
even if none of her friends are really keen to hear mine.
i am going to stop this right here.
even if she's gonna continue talking bad about me
behind my back or whatsoever.
this just shows how petty and dumb you are.
cos i did not do anything to you at all.
and i am going to say again,
its a problem with your character.
cos its not ME ALONE who dislikes you.
it is everyone who was attach to SIMM.
so for once, stop blaming me.
and do a personal self reflection.
yes, you may think you're pitiful and all.
that we left you alone in Shanghai.
but if your CLOSEST friends are not going to teach you about the flaw in your character.
who is going to.?
furthermore, i hope that you know you must have done
several things that were drastic for people to avoid you at high cost.
i am not going to deny that you were the only child.
but that does not oblige me to WASH YOUR CLOTHES, PICK UP YOUR RUBBISH.
and do everything else for you.
you have your hands and feet,
you're not immobile,
so please jolly well, get off your butt and do something.
you may say you're imperfect and that you can't please everyone,
but i am very please to tell you that
your imperfectons have reached an extremely unplesant stage.
even your friends talk bad about you, for goodness sake.
and to think that you think they actually love you.
i dont deny that i am imperfect either,
and i know i did talk bad about you to this blog,
and to people whom i trust.
because what i said was the truth,
and all you said was to act pitiful.
and bout kl, he's your fyp partner.
so if you wanna let him have a hard time during fyp,
i am very proud to say that i forsee
that you're gonna sabotage your own fyp.
so good luck to you.
in this whole thing,
kl did not take any sides once,
nor did he lash out.
he only comforted when i cry.
i dont expect him to get involve in this cos,
1. he's a GUY.
2. he's your fyp partner.
and to your friends who said that he should protect you
cos you're his fyp partner,
I AM HIS GIRLFRIEND AND I DID NOT ASK HIM TO PROTECT ME.
WHO ARE YOU TO DO SO.?
i am telling you in a very nice way,
stop crying and bawling like
i gave you a kick or a slap,
or i just yelled at you.
cos i did not did not did not.
i just ignored you.
so stop telling lies about me,
or how we bullied you.
cos we did nth.
we just ignored.
stop pushing the blame when its yours.
face the music.
and learn to be a stronger person.
i am doing this,
cos i no longer wanna tolerate this nonsense,
nor put kl in a difficult position.'and because of my religion,
i've been angry and bitter about this,
and its hurting inside.
i will forgive you, but it will take time for me to forget.
please, change for the better.
i really hope to stop hearing you talking bad about me to your friends.
enough is enough.
if not, i will make sure that everyone see your true colors.
last but not least, your dream loverboy.
will never ever love you.
thats what i can assure you of.
Labels: one last time.
